Love Letter

I don’t know what the universe holds for us.

Even if you do intoxicate me in a good way.

But I have to clean up the messes in my life as do you.

It will all be ok soon.

I wasn’t necessarily in the position financially to be of help to you in the way you need right now.

And I really thought I could but you’re still working on things, so they’re some high bills which can be expected.

I think you know what type of person I am so you declined and I insisted which I shouldn’t have done.

You would have come to me if it got terribly bad.

But I made it sound like I got you covered.

And at the capacity you need right now, I don’t.

But I am still working at things as are you.

I am inconsistent with others because I haven’t set boundaries with myself in order for me to be consistent with.

I don’t know what it is about you but I just want to take on the world in your behalf.

Whatever it is, I just want to do it.

And of course, I tried to be superwoman as usual.

And things are just easy with you.

But I knew that I needed to figure out how to balance and harmonize.

We have just never had boundaries that we set for each other really.

And we just flow… so that can get tricky and it did.

I don’t regret helping you.

It’s not that.

It’s just that I’m so willing to make sure you’re feeling good and you’re somewhat ok that I’m neglecting myself.

That’s not balance.

And Its not fair to you if I get frustrated because I’m doing things above and beyond what you ask of me but then getting upset when you cant reciprocate.

The problem with that is that you have said in the beginning you can’t deliver on these things I’m getting frustrated at for no reason.

The common factor is me there.

And I need to correct that, which could take time.

But revisiting that behavior, topic or convo Is only going to push you away.