A buffer is something we use to numb ourselves of pain or to deal with it in a different way. Example: ‘I had a rough day, I need a drink’ … but do i need that drink to help me feel someway? Why don’t I want to feel the feelings and be in the moments? Instead of thinking about a buffer, I’m thinking about how to process my emotions raw. I don’t want to use worldly buffers (sex,drugs,alcohol,etc) to solve my problems. I think we waste too much time trying to focus on NOT doing something instead of just not desiring it by living as if. Living as if I…

LOA: Attracting a Specific Person But it’s only when you are okay with not being with them, that you open the path for the Law of Attraction to attract your specific person to you. Until you’re okay with not being with him/her, a part of you is resisting and making it impossible for you to have what you want. This means, according to the Law of Attraction, that until you’re okay with possibly losing him/her, it will be difficult for you to have the relationship you want with him/her. You have to be okay with not having him/her. I know this isn’t easy. I know how hard it is. It’s…

Ways I changed to mornings  “push yourself to get up before the rest of the world – start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.  push yourself to fall asleep earlier – start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable. lie in your garden, feel the sunshine on your skin.  get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit…

I understood the gravity of our connection as humans. Where you fell shot was when I believed that you held a standard above any other man. I believed that you were superior. I figured I was gaining by being in your presence. I walked into that room and immediately fell into the false security of you being a man in this difficult narrative called us. It wasn’t until I saw how you acted after that incident, that I looked at you differently. Maybe we had two different experiences. Maybe we had two different expectations

I envisioned a conversation about where things were headed in this zone of ours. Why did it feel like time was freezing randomly on purpose. Like he never meant to hurt us. To hurt our trust. To abandon OUR LOVE. He knew what this shit was. Just another milk dud. I just wanna hear the door thud. He’s walking around acting like he was born a thug. But I knew what it was. And I hated just because. But I wasn’t into loving his flaws just because.