I just remember the weight on the scale being 310 pounds, I was so damn tired of not being able to breathe and I knew there was something that had to be done. Simple tasks like running up and down the stairs used to wear me out.
I was always comfortable around 170lbs. Lean and in the gym working out regularly. As well as paying attention to what I was eating. It was something that was important to me. Until I realized just how damaged I was emotionally.
My childhood traumas were haunting me. They created hardships for me in my friendships, relationships and even professionally. Things started to crumble and fall apart. I think we all have to go through certain things in order to learn lessons, move on and hopefully help and inspire someone else going through the same thing. Over the course of 18 months I had gained over 75lbs. I remember looking at the scale in March 2014 and it read 173lbs. When I looked at it again later that year in the fall I had shot to 190lbs. I became pregnant with my son and when I gave birth to him I was 225lbs. By the time he was a year old I was 280. And when he was just a year old I had topped out to 310. It was insane.
I started paying attention to what I ate and in 18 months I had lost over 150 pounds! I am not lying to you. I told myself that I was going to need at least 10-12 months to start a detox emotionally. I would need to get rid of everything and everyone who wasn’t helping me grow. Believe it or not, there were friends who had known me so long (which is why I called them friends) and they knew I was out of shape, overweight and depressed. Yet they were so jealous of me when I was ‘normal size’, and felt like I intimidated them. Because of that, when I was overweight they were around me more; nice to me in a fake manner.
‘Things are fine.’
‘You don’t look out of the ordinary at all.”
They consistently said stuff like that. Knowing damn well things weren’t ok. And now that I have lost the weight, they have a completely different attitude. Still jealous. And somewhat shocked and amazed at what I overcame. As they should be. The shock value alone is enough to let you know that I have been where you are.
It still feels unreal. But the most amazing feeling is that I would love to be able to share it with you!
My fitness training is available, with my focus on those with children. Those with so much depth to them, that it gathers in pounds. And they know they want more. They know they want to enjoy the active life with their children more. But they just don’t know where to start. I am glad you found me. I would love to help.
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