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I figured it best to compliment this extensive resume that I have. I can tell you that quite honestly I have been a person that wanted to be less about the flattery of a man and getting my life paid for or taken care of by one. More of working and taking care of myself. That’s just how I was raised. And maybe that’s why I don’t have a ton of savings in a way. I lived in the moment. Didn’t decide to save for a rainy day fund. Didn’t rely on a man when I fell upon hard times. Didn’t feel like I needed a man to validate me. And so I would know of the lives that women lived where they had a life paid for by a man but I already had men that didn’t contribute to my life in a certain morale, trying to control who I was. Control things about me. And I didn’t want that. As you understand who I am, you get one thing clear. Independence stands still. Because respect comes first. And for me, money didn’t not equal respect. I would feel like I had more respect for myself if I just went to work and ignored the fact that you only wanted to help pay a phone bill to go through my phone. To pay my car not to have something to talk about with your boys. I never wanted to give a man like that a chance. It’s not that a man is not needed. It’s just that your brash attitude and desire to control a woman’s dreams on one hand while having every other woman isn’t a dream I had for myself. I dreamed of having an ability do singularly for myself what someone who truly believed in me would do simultaneously. He would work with me. Not against me.
This rhetoric that was in other people’s minds that I was around to use a man for his house or car or networking was never the truth. Never adding a man to my lease. And I would go to whatever extent I could to prove that you need to have RESPECT. I pay my rent. Not them. Barely getting your foot in my door. In my life. You needed to understand me. And often refused to as a community. Taking the man’s side. So I fought back. Silenced my actions. Shut the door to my heart. Dealt with being fired for bullshit reasons. Not playing into work politics. Even secluding myself from men and women in general. To see who they truly are as people. How hard will they fight for me? I was never into the using mindset to where when I leave you and I elevate, you feel empty. And it’s my fault you feel that way. If I was an awful person and was only out to use you, You know I only used you. And if I am honest with myself, I would know the truth. But I never wanted to feel that when I laid my head on my pillow at night. So I would move strategically. For the betterment of my soul. To prove how grounded I can actually be. Taking work ethic seriously. Ignoring those who aren’t there for the work itself. Still worried about the souls I serve. Not someone that wants to make me feel bad about being in a position in life that required more strength so they lie to my boss at work and I lose my job. I never worry about those types. I leave them to God.
Because in fact, when it comes to a man that wants to use you for what you’re worth; when he’s done with you he will try and ruin your reputation and discredit you. But you can’t discredit the work someone has actually done. It stands. So although you might have been the very person that didn’t like what I write, what I say, what I do; I don’t do it because of you. I do it because it’s helping shape who I want to become. Leaving reviews for jobs and places I have been will slap someone in the face who feels like they had the right to say something damaging about who I am. As if they own me. Own my resume. My reputation. They don’t. It shows I was here to help. And how some people around me were only around me to distract me or deter me from my dreams, goals and aspirations instead of investing in me. And I mean seriously investing in me. I am a woman of worth. And prove so, continuously.
XOXO,
El’Aundra
