07.03.24

Woke with the immense desire to lay flat all that controls my emotions. I slept on the couch. I had fallen asleep on the couch while we were watching a movie. I woke to notice that I had most definitely not gone to the bed. He had already gone to the bed. I was so tired. My hip was bothering me last night. Sometimes it feels like such a deep rotting pain it puts me to sleep. So I just leave myself to the side of the spiritual pain body to be released.

We were watching a movie last night that really provoked so much other thinking in my mind. It was so interesting how this man was so damaging to these associates of his. How he talked to them. It was quite awful. So, I began to think about the way he abused this woman while he was talking to her. The dynamic was toxic, and he was very much psychologically abusing her. But then she became more of a journeyman to the abuse delivery and began dishing it out to people that created an insecurity inside herself.