Being fired for a cause is something. A reason. But the reason is just as useless as the time spent on it which got me fired in the first place. Likely related to a man from the past sticking his shit where he thinks it affects me. Or maybe the fact I was walking around the nursing home singing. Or maybe it was my PTSD dx in 2021. But it could also be another coworker. And if that’s the case, that’s why I don’t ever engage. This keeps me celibate. Don’t even bother formulating a reason or excuse is how I feel. Living in truth, I am glad to move…

Quite honestly. I was in Syracuse 8 years and nothing you can say about it. Quiet at work. Respectful. Stay to myself. Morale. Modesty. I was always keeping to myself even at home. No men in my house spending the night and just disrupting etc. and when I started associating with jealous people they started dumping their insecurities on me and I removed myself from their life completely. So I will always have family in Syracuse. All positive before encountering a turn for a change in the way I do things. That change occurred around 2021 when I started working at a nursing home in Minoa. And it’s been stressful…

I would have liked to had more time. More songs to sing. Music being the one thing that allows me to feel free, and comfortable alone on my own. I never understood what it was, that peacefulness. I just passed it up as an energy because of who we were as people. Standing by the tennis courts, talking to my Aunt about work and what we were up against with creative projects. Arguable, it was one of the hardest times of my life. I think it was the not knowing as much as I wanted to know about the past and not being able discern where I had gotten things…

This is fascinating to me because in the rawest form of life I am not perfect. But I do understand some things about birth charts and the spiritual realm. I found this paper and was enamored by what it said about my sign. I remember doing my birth chart with a couple of young girls I was working as residence counselor at a Sexually Trafficked Teen Youth & Runaway Home in NY and had been at home with my family and talking about things that were on your charts. When we were working in the group homes with MH/DD it was also something that was nice to do in activities.…

Taken in my apartment in Syracuse 2013. More later.

April 2024