*Note: This is a fantasy. About a man I have never been with. I say this over and over to myself all the time. “Open Up.” What if there is a man out there that wants to share a night like this with me. But it’s normal. It’s everyday life for us because we feel like we were made for each other. And we were. At the time of so many responsibilities in my life, overly conscious about things I might have been dealing with at the time. Overly conscious of the person I was with. Thank you for conversing with me and talking to me about how beautiful you…

Crazy to see the audacity to disrespect your desire to have involvement in your child’s life unaffected and not want one part of intimacy with anyone else until you have wholesome attributes of peace because of that very ability to turn and flip angles disturbs the very peace you seek to have. It’s that fear of letting guards down. -El’Aundra